My childhood dreams & do I still have them?

I recently had a thought about all the crazy things you dream to be and have as a child. The innocence and ignorance of real life meant you could inspiring outlook on life; without understanding the realism of actual life. I wish we could maintain that sense of peace in the world, letting our imagination show us our greatest desires. But, alas, here we are, with real people problems in the real people world.

I wanted to look back on those memories and consider if they are still with me, which dreams have stood the test of time?

1. Becoming a Vet.

I believe it is almost a universal law that every child has to want to be a vet at one point. As a child, the idea of spending your whole day with adorable animals and helping them get better was the most desirable job in the world.

Unfortunately, I got lazy and realised that wasn’t going to work out for me. I also got smart, not smart enough to get into a veterinary course, but smart enough to realise I never could. Maybe it was because I didn’t have enough natural intelligence, or maybe it was because I didn’t have enough motivation (probably both of those things and more) but all I know is that by Year 7, when school got tough, that dream was out the of the window in an instant.

I guess there are still aspects of that dream that I do still wish for! Spending my entire day with animals would make me very happy, I hope that a future with some pet dogs and ponies will substitute the sad death of my Veterinary career dreams.

2. Live in a different country.

‘different country’ is vague, i know. I have always imagined myself jetting off and setting up somewhere new. I never really looked into the logistics of it, especially avoiding the topic of my fear of flying, but the idea was always there. My dream destination changed so regularly I can hardly keep up with it, but here are a few I do remember:

  • Australia
  • Scotland (no flying! +1 to past me)
  • New Zealand
  • USA
  • Canada
  • Netherlands

I’m honestly unsure why I chose those locations, probably because they were pretty and I had seen them on TV, but nevertheless they still sound pretty cool! So, yes, I would still love to move somewhere new, a shake up of life would be incredible and it’s even better if I don’t have to catch a flight.

Don’t hold me to it, but I’m currently obsessing over Canada, it may have something to do with Justin Trudeau but I can’t be too sure… But really, the country looks beautiful and is very progressive in comparison with other countries and those are two big ticks on my list!

3. Being a Popstar.

Watching and listening to pop icons whilst I was younger really inspired me to want to perform. I was very lucky to catch the end of the Spice Girls reign whilst growing up, and their message of girl power was so important to me.  Am I vocally gifted? No, not really, but where’s the shame in trying?

Secretly, I would still love to perform, but sometimes you have to give yourself a reality check! I do still watch performers and think ‘I could do that’ or ‘damn, I would own that stage’, even ‘please, they have nothing on me’.

I was watching Eurovision recently and I spent ages picturing myself performing on stage. Imagine, Beyonce 2013 Superbowl style show (here’s the visuals: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=suIg9kTGBVI ) and I was so so proud of myself. I mentally gave myself a standing ovation because, honestly, I killed it!!! I know Graham Norton would have been so proud. 12 points to UK all round.

4. Having a family.

The idea of having my own family – a husband, children, pets – has always been a dream of mine. However as I have been becoming more and more aware of the truth in the real world and watching my friends get in and out of relationships, I’ve questioned the reality of long term, happy, relationships. Honestly, that makes me very sad, and I know that life long love is out there and there are millions of people living their happiest relationships which is amazing! I just know that I would definitely rather be single, than in a relationship with someone who lacks respect and appreciation for me.

Despite that, I would still love my own family, especially children. The image I have in my head of my future family (possibly in Canada, we can’t be too sure) is so beautiful, but I worry that it won’t materialise.

At the moment I just want a Basset Hound (rescue pup of course) and I will be happy as Larry!

Love Yourself.

Lucy xoxo

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